The Inkwell Collective

successful? who among us can really claim to be successful at anything we accomplish? am i a successful songwriter or musician? did i write a good song? if so, why am i performing it for free, to five people in a coffee shop on a thursday night? unless i'm so successful that only certain people really "get" what i'm trying to say or do. i said to emily that i'd obsess about this for three days--today is day 3. we drove up to appleton to play at the copper rock and not a single person showed up from our mailing list. nobody showed up that we knew, period. there were a handful of people sitting in booths, but nobody so much as clapped most of the time. we just kind of looked at each other and smiled. it's one thing to play for nobody in the basement of the oshkosh public museum, when at least you know you're going to make enough for room rent. but to play for nobody and make nothing? that sucks. i mean, i read about bands who played for empty rooms on their road to success, but not when they were almost 30, with three kids and a full time job. so BUGGER OFF!!

[steev]